“The difficulty that accompanies you is less like the dark than a trusted lantern to see your way by.”
― Eudora Welty
There is so much I want to say about this quote.
I’ve rewritten this post over and over and still don’t have words to wrap around my idea.
It’s simply this:
That I’m on the edge, the precipice of something new.
And it has to do with letting go of so many old stories. Old ways of being.
These old ways having served their purpose, but finally it feels I have outgrown them.
Is this how the snake feels before she sheds her skin?
Itchy, uncomfortable, bursting, yet it looks like nothing is really happening on the surface?
There are difficulties that have accompanied me for a long time: self-consciousness about being seen, feeling ugly and uncomfortable in my own skin, terrified about putting my work into the world, (and therefore overthinking things to death), disturbed by the constant push/pull I feel between doing my creative work (which I love, and that’s what I crave more time for), versus the selling of the creative work (which I still find draining, kind of a drag, and really, something I’d rather not have to do at all.)
OK. I can’t believe I just said all of that out loud.
I’m going to quickly conclude, before I hit erase again.
What’s different is that there is more acceptance for what is, and instead of fighting against it, (yeah, fighting against acceptance) I’m going to allow acceptance to be my lantern for awhile, and see what paths she lights up for me.
In other words, something opened up recently, and I am able to embrace this idea of difficulty being a lantern, a wayfinding tool, rather than something to kick and scream against and try so hard to fix, change, make better, make different.
It’s not giving up or giving in. It’s letting go. I’m still struggling with the words here…. it’s something I’m feeling more than thinking, so the words are challenging.
I’ve been doing the journaling prompts right along with y’all, in real time, and this FIRE theme is really kicking my ass.
How about you?
Today’s Journal Prompts:
The difficulty accompanying me is…
I’ve been rejecting this difficult experience by…
If I looked for some light and guidance here, I would find…
The opportunity for me is…
This post is part of the FIRE: 30 Day Journal Project.
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